给阿爸天父的信

天父，

我觉得好软弱

面对前面未知的路

我只能说我好怕好怕，可是同时又充满期待。。

我心中有我自己的计划，可是我不知道那是天父你应允的吗？

走到人生的交叉路口，

我停下了脚步。。

回头看看，再看一看前面的路。

我该如何做决定？

我悖逆的时候，

天父你是否还聆听我无声的叹息？

待会儿，我要考我大学生涯中最后一个考试。。

说实话我没有很大的信心。

主啊。。

求你加添我力量。

让我能凭着你加添给我的力量来面对种种的困难和挑战。

带领我做每一个的决定。

这一次的考试，我不知道自己的把握有多少。

一切只能交托给天父你自己。

交托，信靠，顺服 ，等候- 我通过考验的功课。

这样祷告是奉主名求的，阿们。

心语

前几天心情低落

爱哭鬼又发作了

只因为她失败了

她考不好

心里的不安与焦躁

不知道该如何发泄

好怕好怕在最后的关头

出差错

压力到了极点

接下来还有两科考试

我几乎每天都在他面前掉眼泪

每天在他面前吐苦水

我知道他很担心

谢谢他越来越体谅，疼爱我

他也有他工作上的压力

他一直说明年是转变的一年

我们要做好多的决定

一切都不容易

去留我们都没有方向

我知道凭我自己

我不能做什么

唯有神

祂能帮助我

祂是我的避难所

曾经我远离了祂

可是我知道祂不曾离弃我

或许那个分数

是神用来提醒我

不要自大

不要懒惰

操练我对祂的信心

要谦卑

要时时思念祂天上的国，祂的话语

为我代祷：

考试期间不要暴饮暴食

有足够的休息

有聪明智慧来温书

神能为我和他安排我们前面的道路

学习顺服

每天亲近神- 祷告，读经

你呢？有代祷事项吗？

可以留言哦。。

若你不介意

我们可以成为彼此的祷伴。。

我们一起成长

through tears and joy

Flip over the page

3:02pm.

Start at 3:20pm.Friday.29.10.10.

A life that is so routine.so me.so beautiful.

I am all contended.

Not letting the time to control me again.

Preparing myself for something extravagant.

Its gotta be a challenging one.

But I am fine with it.

I love to write but I don't know how to write.Ironic.

I am blessed.Cause we are meant to be together.

Thank you.

The girls' dream

Today I had a great chat with a girlfriend of mine.

Its related with our career pathway.

I just accidentally bumped into her in the lab this afternoon.

We both are final semester students.

Just found out that we are in the same condition.

We both shared similar/same dreams.

Facing same problems.

Well,I hope the sentence would not just stop here.

I hope we both could be able to turn our dreams into reality in days to come or even years.

Its not impossible as I told myself.

I would try when there is a chance.

I know the reality would beat me down easily.

But I know I have to stand up strong.

Right now,all I can do is submit to God.submit submit submit.

*cross fingers* for everything.

Derek Redmond

Today,during the lecture I cried.

I would always remember this unique lecture class.

What happened actually??

The lecturer showed us a vid.

Its about this person-Derek Redmond.

Well,watch the vid.

I saw determination, perseverance,and strong motivation spirit in him.

It had not been easy for him to come to this stage.

But he didn't give up just like that.

He completed the race even though he was not a champion.

In the end,he won all the respects and honours from the audience.

The story happened in year 1992.

After 8 years the story is still inspiring to a lot of people,including me.

The lecturer told us not to give up easily.

Somehow along the way,we may be experiencing the lowest bottom level in our life.

We may have lost the faith in ourselves.

Because of failure,we are not being able to stand up anymore.

Some people just quit.

He was trying to say that Derek Redmond could stand up again and finished the race,why couldn't you?

Also,God wouldn't let you go through it alone.

He will be there to hold you,strengthen you,cherish you and guide you.

Just like Derek Redmond's father did.

God is our Almighty Father in Heaven.

It really heals my heart.

I think God sent His message through the lecturer and the inspiring vid.

The promising message encourage me to move forward.

I would try my best.Fall down,stand up again.

Thank you Lord,Derek Redmond,and my dear lecturer.

And the story goes on....

Greetings everyone!

It's October.

A happy month for October Babies right?

So here's happy birthday to all the October babies.

As I mentioned before,lotsa photos to be shared right?

Ready?

Here you go.

Note:There are a lot of my photos.

So if you don't like it,feel free to skip this post then.

Being caught on a camera.

Its a day out shopping with girlfriends.

They were there during my first hair show in my life.

Giving me the support which I have never expected.

I am touched deep inside my heart.

Its a new change for me with the color.

I am giving myself something different upon reaching 21.

Retarded me.

Celebrating friend's birthday.

I don't have all the photos with me yet.

So these are the fews that I could blog with.

Day out to beach for BBQ with churchmates.

Its was a sunny evening & with my fav maxi dress.

Having lotsa fun and laughter with them.

Besides,they put an early birthday celebration for me.

A surprise indeed!

Lovely churhmates.

We were having gathering at the Bak Kut Teh,Pellita area.

Food are nice.

We all had the tired look.

Cuz its after school.

Just recently,the church camp.

It could be the last camp that I had in four years of uni life.

I cried during the sharing session.

Yes,I am reluctant to let go the memories that I had.
I love them cause we are a BIG family.

Each one has their own characteristics.

Unique at the same time cute.

I would say too many photos

until I couldn't blog one by one.

I have many faces.

Naughty,funny,crazy,quiet,emotional.

I wish I could be pretty all the time as well.

But when the real emotions blend in,

do I still manage to be pretty?

Guess not.

So that is the real me.

A girl with no make up,very real one.

Till then.

I still have photos.

Maybe next post.

Hey,girl~

I was in the school lab at this moment.Life has been busy and I also deleted my previous pre typed post.I dont know what to write,what to say these days.So much struggling moments which I don't think I can take them easily.Mind is blank.

When people grew up,they tend to change.Including me.
Last night they threw me a suprise birthday party,I was surprised.
At the same time,I just noticed I am getting older.As in turning into a real adult this time.
It has been not easy for me.
My mindset is very different from last time.
For everything that I have done or said,I can't think twice anymore.I need to think multiple times and be responsible for myself.
Still confused with the journey ahead of me.
Tired mind,tired soul.

Okay,back to reality again.
Maybe there is something wrong with me?
I want a break.

Hectic One~

Yes,it has been a hectic week for me.

But P-R-O-C-R-A-S-T-I-N-A-T-I-I-O-N mode is always there.

Works are piling up.

So far,I have submitted 2 assignments.

I am not sure how have I been doing.

*cross fingers*

I guess you would have figure out that I am here to pour out my feelings again.

The feelings is unknown.

I wanna a GetAway..Far far away.

Bali would be a great destination.And so with Maldives.

Perhaps,Bangkok/Taiwan would be nice too.

Have been gaining weight.And I don't know how to lose those fats from me.

Nothing much to say here.As I am tired..

I wish my friends are doing well in everything.

Nothing much to say.

Basically I am just here for the sake of updating the blog.

Till then.

Trying to piece myself back

I don't know where is my position for the past few days.
I felt so separated.

Especially when the others are better than me and they are getting those favouritism.

Ouch...its hurting....

I sound so jealousy here I know.

I can't tame my heart...

I knew I dreamt big.

I wish to enter the industry where I am under the spotlight of the public,an industry that has something to do with glam and fame.

I wish to enter the industry whereby I can fly on the sky,travel to different kind of places and serving people in a beautiful and polite manner all the time.

Could you get a hint what I always wanted to be?

BUT

There is one major constraint.My height.

I am 153cm if I have not mistaken or max I have is 155cm.

Who would ever consider you, when you don't even have the height.

Unlike appearance,I can do something about my appearance if I don't look good.

Perhaps make up,perhaps plastic surgery.

But with height issue,nothing can be done to increase my height right?

The reality is so cruel that sometimes it doesn't allow you to get a try even once.

What to do..accept the fact and wake up girl!*slap mysef* for being so thick face.

I wish to organize my own fashion show one day and all my models are 150cm to 160cm tall.

I am not kidding.I really wanted to.

I want to give an opportunity to the girls out there who have the same similar height like me to have a chance to step their foot on the runway.

Why the industry always left them/me out?even beauty pageant events too.

Its is so unfair.hmmph...

Basically the above are my personal opinions.

I do not mean to attack anyone.

I have rights to pour out my mind here right?

=Till then=In piecing myself back mode.

Current Fav Playlist:

1. All Time Low - The Wanted
2. Vanilla Twilight - Owl City
3. The Saltwater Room - Owl City
4. What You Waiting For - Mizz Nina feat.Colby
5. Teenage Dream - Katy Perry
6. Only One - Alex Band
7. 玩爱之徒 - Jolin Tsai
8. Round & Round - Selena Gomez & The Scene
9. 坏了 - 张芸京
10. Whataya want from Me - Adam Lambert

Here and There

The birthday girl is the first one from right.

Jacqueline Ting Ai Ling

Happy 21st to you <3

Had a great night partying with the church friends.

Its funny to look at the guys turn reddish after 1-2 cups of vodka.

__________________________________

I can feel that we are on the edge of the cliff.

Two person with two different perspectives.

Heart and Mind still searching the love the exist between us initially.

After today things will be different.

I will be stronger,tougher.

Will learn to hold back my tears more.

__________________________________

Five years from now where I will be?

I look forward to future and at the same time afraid about it.

Many don't knowS.

xoxo

Little Miss J

Take it off

She is currently busy with

1. studies
2. trying to make herself to have more social life instead of isolating herself
3. series marathon with The Vampire Diaries and Pretty Little Liars
4. working out
5. making her life more interesting
6. trying hard to be a good good girl
7. time management
8. waiting for GG Season 4
9. etc etc

She is missing out on the Fashionista Love Eps.

Will come back soon.

-xoxo-

Little Miss J

Kampung Girls in Big City Pt.2

At night,we just walked on the Bukit Bintang Walkway.

It was so happening.

Guess what we saw?

STREET ARTIST!!

Very Punky right?and he held a scorpion on his hand.

I guess that is his pet.I didn't dare to go near him like

the guy in the photo.He is so daring.

Silver man.You need to pay RM2 to get a photo with them.

They are really friendly and we did pay RM2 to do that.

I think it worths cause I am really amazed by their effort in

dressing up themselves with glittering paint.

I think its really harsh to their skin.

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Not much of special food we tried in KL.Too busy indulged ourselves in

shopping spree but not eating spree.But this particular dining place is really nice.

The Spaghetti Farm.No service charge for food.

Service ambience is good.

Nice one.My tomato and beef spaghetti.The serving portion is huge and it comes

with a big bowl of soup.

Maybe from the photo u can't jugde how big it is.

Fyi,the bowl is deep.

I like it cause its simple and taste good to me.The price is affordable too.

Location:Lot 49-50,LG Floor,Mid Valley Megamall.

Especially recommended to East Malaysians cause I am sure

West Malaysians are familiar with it.

So do check out their menu,if you happen to be in Mid Valley.

No need to say,Jln Alor is a must visit place in Bukit Bintang.

People mountain,people sea.Why?All food.Cheap local delicacies.

Went to school today and saw lotsa lotsa new faces.

How come I never see them before.

I started to feel what the seniors have experienced before.

My friends circle started to get smaller.

Finally,I MISS my Englishman.He is leaving me for ten days.

Let's see how tomorrow is :p

Ding Dong!!

• After a long week of holiday,I am recharged.
• The little miss J is coming back to the blog again.
• Coming up will be the updates of my trip.
• I bought 13 pieces of clothes,3 bags,2 pairs of shoes.
• I think the shopping is not enough tho *greedy face*
• And I want to thank God for the result.
• I officially announced that I can proceed to the next sem.
• Got sting by a big black bee on my arm and now its swollen :(

=Till then=

Her Words

1. She knows the limit and she knows when to not cross the boundary ---> [thgiew].Its time to stop.
2. She has found her soul mate but now she needs BFFs.
3. She needs many many lucks in her life.
4. 想做个白皙美人。

看图说心情故事

我的近照

现在放假中

除了吃就是睡

脸圆了对吧？

前面的头发

是妈妈亲手帮我修的

猜猜是什么？

黑白相间

往下看吧。。

最近我很爱的一件。。

婆婆从澳洲千辛万苦带回来的。

多亏我堂姐的帮忙

才能在秋/冬季的季节买到夏天的连身裙

手工很精致

Nie 堂姐，你的品味好好哦~

六月摄。大弟照相机镜里的我们。

适逢达雅节和世足和大弟的来访

当晚就一起喝杯茶

顺便感受一下那热闹的夜生活

伴随了我六年的读书岁月

今天的一不小心

就把脆弱的它断成两半

你问我心痛吗？

我说旧的不去新的不来。哈哈。

其实还是对它有感情的

对于接下来谁该取代它我还是毫无头绪

毕竟习惯它的存在了。。

回家后发现这只小熊静静的坐在桌上

它应该有七岁了吧。。

为什么会这么说呢？

原因是这应该是我14岁的生日礼物

它毛茸茸的。可爱。

Out of the Blue

Second post for today.The first post actually is a rewrite version.I just don't know what happen to the pictures that I have uploaded.Guess it should be something wrong with the HTML code.Lazy to figure out the main reasons behind it and thus I chose to rewrite it again.

Its July already.Ain't it fast?When I just stepped into the first day of the month,friends around me were in the middle facing some personal problems which I feel sorry for them when I heard about the news.I would not dare to say these problems will not come to me one day,even if it is not these problems,there will always be others.So I keep reminding myself to get ready to face the roller coaster like life.

Last night I was on the phone with my boy after I came back from a small classmates gathering.I have so much to tell him and ended up I talked on the phone nonstop for like 17mins and him watching World Cup at the same time.He didn't make much response but I feel better after I poured out all my thoughts to him.Its funny that my classmates thought he is a doctor.Oh well..haha.Going overseas to study has always been my dream but too bad the family condition didn't allow me to do so and blame myself for not studying hard to grab any opportunity to go study overseas.Sometimes,I do envy my classmates for most of them went to England to further their studies after Form 5.

Sigh.

Out of all these,my boy gave me a conclusion.Your mc is probably coming soon.So your mood swing.

Sharing is CaRiNg

The fat bulging thighs and legs have been a major problem to me because I have pear shape body figure.

Most of the time I would prefer to wear dress rather than jeans or short pants.

[One piece dress is my best friend]

Short pants is the last thing that I would want to wear because it exposes my legs weaknesses so much.I hardly buy short pants and I actually envy those girls who can wear short pants.

Here's a little tip which I find useful to shape up our legs especially girls.

So~Let's workout to have a pair of beautiful legs!

Or if you have a better tips to share,feel free to drop a comment =)

A Replay

Its almost the end of June.

As July approached,we are marching towards the second half of 2010.

So far..have u achieved what u have planned at the beginning of the year 2010?

I would say there are always ups and downs.

But I am glad that God has led me pass through it safely.

As mentioned in the title,this is a replay.A replay of my first half year 2010.

Actually just some of my fav photos.

First,attended a wedding,the couple both of them are my best friends.

Having fun after the wedding dinner

A friend of him took this pic for us

Second,the award ceremony.I was really surprised when I received the phone call for the invitation to the ceremony.At first I even thought that it was a prank.haha.

Still,I want to say:Glory Be to God.

Third,Curtin Prom Night 2010.This time all my housemates went.Food was great and so with the performance too.I would say I enjoyed it.

Gorgeous right?

Me and my man again.Thanks for all the acceptance,love,tolerance that you have given.Even though there were some quarrelling moment but I am touched that we would make through it.ILY.

Us reluctant to undress and remove our makeup.So busy camwhoring at home.

Fourth, Sunday.

An usual Sunday where I will have laksa for my breakfast with my bf's family and church members.

Fifth,attended my cousin's Dip.graduation today.

I am glad that we were there to support her.She came back all the way from Kuching just to attend her graduation ceremony.Nie,wish you were here too~

Cheers!For everything and more to come........

I just found out I am a hairband girl.Yes,I love hairband.

That's all for this post.

Tomorrow I will get to see my beloved grandma and taste her homecook chicken soup which I have been missing so long.

Just Random facts

Warning:Its going to be a boring post anyway,with words only.Oh well,if u r interested in reading them,feel free to do so.If not,you may skip my post today.hiak hiak.

1. Yeppy!I am back in my lovely dovey nest in Sibu.Everywhere is about food.Basically the cafes are springing up like mushroom after the rain.These cafes are not coffee shops,all of them are.....err...how to decribe them...hmm...just the type of cafes with very nice ambience.I think you get what I mean.But I am not sure if all of them offer good food or not.Guess I can give some of them a try during this holiday.Btw,we got Secret Recipe surprisingly.So,tourists who come visiting Miri,dont get surprise if we drive u around for food all the time.Basically,that is the entertainment we have got in this lil town,that is eat eat eat.Other than that,no more ady.Agree everyone?haha.
2. Just found out that the aftermath of stress is...*drum roll*.......WEIGHT GAIN.Yes,I have gained 2kg during this exam period.My body is swollen like a balloon.Needless to say,my face is the most obvious one.Hate that kind of feeling.My boy told me that is the max that I can go.Is he hinting me to go on diet?Idk.But I dont really wanna to go on diet especially when there so many happenings coming up in July.Tell me how can I go on diet when all these related to food.gah....Nah..put diet the later one first.
3. Talking about July,here's some of the important dates on my schedule: 10th July (friend's wedding reception and lunch),this is going to be the third wedding reception cause since last year Dec until now I have attended 2 dy and all are my friends' wedding.13th(5 days KL shopping trip),14th(result release day).....and at the end of July(meet up with my couzie) she is back from Aussie,havent see her for ages dy.
4. I wish/wanted to do some changes to my blog skin and I know its time consuming.Coming back to feed my blog post everyday as possible as I can.Let's see if I can keep the promise and I have the persistency or not.Not forgetting that I want/wish/hope to be an event organizer for some events that I am interested.I got the idea but just that I dont know if I can do it.I am a newbie.
5. Pray hard for my result,for the event that I am wishing for,pray for my holiday so that I have a fruitful one.Back to the beginning,all have to depend on God's planning.So I submit my planning to God.Hope my plan is going according to His will or He has a better plan for me?who knows..=)

I think 5 random facts should be enough dy.Never type such a long post before.I dont want to sound err..should I say "chang qi"or "loso"?..whatever it is.I am going to end this post with a good night.Tomorrow is indeed a new day again.

Currently playing: Song from a secret garden(sad one tho)

Forever 21

Coming to the age of 21,not officially yet but I have yet to discover a lot of things.Things about myself..

During ILI training,the speaker threw us a word,SELF REFLECTION and it caught my attention.Since that day,I started doing self-reflection on daily basis.This is to help myself grow,as to help others as well.

Some people hurted me un or intentionally most of the time through their words.Our mouth as being meant in the bible is the root of evil.And it is true.The words that come out from our mouth either make someone fell or on the other way round.Well,I believe by undergoing those circumstances , wisdom gained bit by bit,come to think positively.

The fight is not over yet and it continues to come back and testing my patience.

Week 2 in school I already feel exhausted.I dream big but I am lacking of consistency.

How to be successful?Guess different people have different definition.I am still figuring out my own definition of success.

Dilemmas.Dilemmas.

My stomach feel so bloated and that explains why I am here pouring words.

Imagine one day when I looked back to 21...will I be laughing at my own ignorance?

Sometimes,ignorance is bliss isn't it?