His Abundance Blessings

I have been a Christian since young.I grow up in a Christian family.
Until today,am still one.The Lord that I believe in is someone who is fair and justice,someone who is loving like a Father,
someone who gave everything just to save us,sinners.

In my life journey,I always take everything for granted.
Thinking that everything that I have is deserved.
When others are having things that I don't have,
sometimes I get jealous.
I never take a close look at what I am having,
that others are not having.
Am such a rebellious daughter isn't it?

After I graduated from Uni,my "interesting life" begin.
Coming to live in this city,is a choice of mine.
I knew Lord opened the way for me too.
I came here and settled down safely.
I knew the Lord never leaves me,
even though He knew slowly I have become from a sheep to a goat.Slowly,I am straying away from Him.
Slowly,I have stop hungering for His words.
And I don't know what is His Will in my life.

Today at this moment,
I am at a crossroad.
Not knowing what is my next move.
I do have a career,
but I am not satisfy with it.
I wish to pursue higher quality lifestyle,a higher status,living in a glam world.
My relationship life is in a disaster.
God wants me to make a choice.

I finally sit down,
starting to think carefully.What have I been doing all these while?
Lord must be very disappointing with me.
I couldn't bear to think that its time.
Time to really repent....
Time to come back to Your side.
To become a good daughter of Yours.

Lord,
In time of difficulties...
Guide me.
Hold me.Mould me.And I shall again be a honourable child of Yours.
Keep my head up and with a humble heart.
Lord,am coming back to You again.
Without You,my life would not be complete.
There is no one else for me,none but Jesus.....