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Title:Rantings



At this moment,im so tired.I don't feel well.Am so wanting to leave this place and go back to my home in another place in Sarawak and close myself in the lil place.When it comes to making decision,im not good at it.I don't mean to hurt anyone.Friendship and relationship both i can't handle well.For relationship,i already announced that i failed and i won't take it up anymore.For friendship,i thought i could do well in that.In the end,it turns out actually im not really good at it also.But seriously i don't want to fail myself in friendship.Because friends will help you grow.We need friends to survive.



My health is not as good as last time.I know something wrong with my health.God,i dunno wat shud i do.Put a big smile on my face?even though deep inside my body im really weak.I couldn't help but the tiredness will just show on my face.Just now,one people saw me and he said why everyday i look like "half dead".Its not my will to look half dead.I need to see a doctor...

Still figuring out how the road beneath me will lead me to where..
Still figuring out how to improve myself..
Still figuring out what other people think...
Still figuring out how to be a lovely person..
Still figuring out how to sacrifice myself...
Still figuring out how to let go of everything...
Still figuring out how to communicate with people..
Still figuring out how to please everyone..
Still figuring out how to become smart..
Still figuring out how to...................................................................................Anymore?
Yes the lists go on...
I wish i could close my eyes and that's all.


I even spelled the word "DISAPPOINTED"wrongly!!!
Disappointing with myself...
Why i just couldn't be as perfect as others??
One hundred WHYs..who could answer me??