Bedtime

Hi I am blogging from my iPhone for the first time n am in the bed now.Its gonna be just a short post.
Gonna share with you guys my recent favorite playlist.I hope one day I would be able to lead these songs in the PnW.Time to serve...

最近的你好吗？

我很好。

语言- 华语&广东话

最近开始爱上用中文写文字。原因很简单，中文始终能表达出那细腻的心思。

原本从小受华文教育的我，华语开始渐渐的退步了。

从出社会到现在，因为工作需要的原因，英文似乎变成了我的第一语言，取代了华语。

其实这并不好，因为我不想变成人们眼中所谓的‘香蕉人’。

说到中文，就让我间接的联想到语言这个有趣的东西。

来到这城市其中一个小成就是 - 学会一点点的广东话。不是因为要预备自己将来嫁给广东人。哈哈。其实是希望自己能更贴近这个城市多一点。

我觉得学会一种语言是很美的一件事。虽然我刚开始学讲的时候会卡卡的，甚至还被同事笑说像来自香港的ABC。。这间中闹好多笑话。。但过程还是很开心。今天也终于学到如何准确的用广东话pronounce “五” 这个号码。Yay!

过年 - 回家

距离回家的日子越来越近了，好期待，一直都在倒数二月一号。真希望就是明天，这样现在我就可以忙着打包行李去机场了。这次回家，除了有两个星期的时间陪家人，吃我最爱的红酒鸡汤面线，我还有两个婚礼要参加。新郎新娘都是教会里很要好的弟兄姐妹。到时我再和大家分享照片吧。

浪漫主义

人家说浪漫不能当饭吃。可浪漫主义的我，找到心目中的结婚进行曲 – Love Story meets Viva La Dida
虽然现在是单身一个人，还在摸索如何去适应的时候。心里还有一个深深的体会，那就是应该开始慢慢的预备自己的心灵，让它逐渐成熟，等候那个时机的到来 - 遇到对的人，一个能接纳，包容，爱你的男人，然后和他拥有一个合神心意的爱情。圣经里的爱情就是这么的浪漫。那一天和大家分享我去年所失去的东西的时候，哽咽了。可是眼泪好乖，终于没有哗啦哗啦的流下来。不是因为我已经不在乎了，而是那个伤口已经渐渐的结痂愈合了。我要把他给我的祝福好好的收起来。然后，把幸福带给在人生下一站等我的人。

最后，把我心目中的结婚进行曲和大家分享。希望你也会喜欢。Signing off~

Another New Year.A Fresh New Start

Hi hi,I am back and its gonna be the first post of 2013.

1. Promised myself this year there will be at least a blog post for each week. That's one of my new year resolutions *winks*
2. Currently I am on medication when writing this post,the dry cough has been brought forward from last year to this year =(
3. I know what is past is past.I am slowly recovering from the pain of breaking up.Slowly piecing my heart back together and slowly learning to stand up again.God has sent me a lot of angels around me during this period of time.I am surrounded by the Love He has given.He,the Father in Heaven,should be my main focus because He is the one who provides and whom has created me in such a unique way.That I need to learn to love myself more.Have been seeing friends around me going through relationship problems.But I know God you will always be there to heal the broken heart.Just like how you slowly mended my heart.Teach me to pray & await for the next happiness.
4. Was watching a video by Michelle Phan called Finding My Light.She mentioned she cried when she wrote it.I cried when I watched it.What she has written is as below:

My wish for the new year is simple..to have a fresh new start.But If I want a new beginning it has to start from within.I am not a perfect person,in fact I am a perfectly imperfect person.Being perfect is not something I seek,because its not possible.But you know what is? Becoming a better person. That's something we can all do..Becoming a better person than I was yesterday is a beautiful promise I can make to myself.

I promised to be Kind,to be Caring,to be Helpful

To be Respectful and to have Self Respect

To be Generous & Giving

To be Sincere & Selfless

To be Forgiving & Accepting 

To be Humble & Honest 

To be courageous & Loyal 

To have more Faith in myself and others

To be more Confident and Brave

But the most important of all,I promised to find light in every darkness

And when it feels hopeless,I will tell myself to try one more time and have Faith.......

If you close to ink,you will be in darkness,and if you are close to light,you will shine bright...

To be continued...If you wanna know what she has written after that,go to this link :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pytPi9v4JEk

And you will be able to view the full video.I find it inspiring and its such a beautiful piece,definitely worth your view.

Before I ended the post,here are some of my favorite photos taken during the New Year Celebration:

I really had a fun time out with them.

Wishing everyone a Blessed Happy New Year 2013 though its already the 6th day of New Year.

Gotta sign off...

Silent words

It's true when they say you never realize how much a person truly means until they're gone.

Read this from LeLove and it is so so true.

All those nights of tears should come to an end.

I have to learn to stand up from where I fell down.

And I am hoping that one day will come soon whereby my heart no longer cry silently..

I need your prayer on this.

Take Care - To The Loved One

The relationship has came to an end.
No more late night callings for sweet talk nor the fights over the phone.
Even now,I still remember we both laughed at the jokes he told in the phone.
Phone bill wasn't something that we really bother at that time.
Distance is what makes us differently as a couple.

Words can't describe how much we used to have.
Memories kept them all.
When you graduated,I was there feeling so so proud of you.
When I graduated,you were there and you bought me flowers for the first time since we have been together.
We were there for each other during the important moments of our life at least.
We never failed to say I love you to each other.Countless time...

It was our 47th monthsaries.
We had another phone call as a celebration.A different one.
That was the time when we both agreed to let go of each other.
I can't be selfish anymore.
And sorry for all the mistakes that I have made in this relationship.
Thanks for being there for me through the ups and downs for the past 3 years.
Glad that you allowed me to be part of your life.Being once a precious babe of yours.

I am having a heavy heart now.
I am so used to having you.
Merely survived through the first day of adjusting myself.Here I am writing.
And I have to continue the battle tomorrow- to get used to the fact that we are no longer together.
This city is lonely without having you on the other end of the phone.

You could have been having a better life without me.
Perhaps it's really unfair for you to see me grow and take care of me.
The next girl deserves to own your love more rather than me.
I thought one day you could be the one on the other end of the aisle waiting and whom my father will hand me over to you.
Its never going to happen....

We both need time to heal.
And this will be the last time to say this : I love and loved you...

This Blog of Hers

I nearly forgot about this blog.It seems like I always use the same opening each time I started to write.
That day a friend of mine asked me why have I stopped blogging.And guess what is the reason that I gave him?
The blog has become too negative.
I felt sorry because I only spill sad things in here.
I am gonna rectify it then.
In another 29 days to come,I am gonna turn 24.
Getting older means you have to be more mature.
Well,its time for the little flower to bloom....

Nowhere

心情低落到不能再低落。。。
还可以再低吗？
我不知道自己可以负荷多久。
困在里头，好难受。
我钻不出这个无底洞。
已经不知道自己该怎么走前面的路了。
累到一个不行。
我想不到要用什么话来形容此时此刻的心情。
不敢再梦想了。
什么都不敢想。。
只想闭上眼睛，从此不要再想了。
连最亲近的人都无法了解。
这条路似乎无法回头了。
是我自己造成的。
没得怪谁。
谁能帮助我？
好难受！！！