Another New Year.A Fresh New Start

Hi hi,I am back and its gonna be the first post of 2013.

1. Promised myself this year there will be at least a blog post for each week. That's one of my new year resolutions *winks*
2. Currently I am on medication when writing this post,the dry cough has been brought forward from last year to this year =(
3. I know what is past is past.I am slowly recovering from the pain of breaking up.Slowly piecing my heart back together and slowly learning to stand up again.God has sent me a lot of angels around me during this period of time.I am surrounded by the Love He has given.He,the Father in Heaven,should be my main focus because He is the one who provides and whom has created me in such a unique way.That I need to learn to love myself more.Have been seeing friends around me going through relationship problems.But I know God you will always be there to heal the broken heart.Just like how you slowly mended my heart.Teach me to pray & await for the next happiness.
4. Was watching a video by Michelle Phan called Finding My Light.She mentioned she cried when she wrote it.I cried when I watched it.What she has written is as below:

My wish for the new year is simple..to have a fresh new start.But If I want a new beginning it has to start from within.I am not a perfect person,in fact I am a perfectly imperfect person.Being perfect is not something I seek,because its not possible.But you know what is? Becoming a better person. That's something we can all do..Becoming a better person than I was yesterday is a beautiful promise I can make to myself.

I promised to be Kind,to be Caring,to be Helpful

To be Respectful and to have Self Respect

To be Generous & Giving

To be Sincere & Selfless

To be Forgiving & Accepting 

To be Humble & Honest 

To be courageous & Loyal 

To have more Faith in myself and others

To be more Confident and Brave

But the most important of all,I promised to find light in every darkness

And when it feels hopeless,I will tell myself to try one more time and have Faith.......

If you close to ink,you will be in darkness,and if you are close to light,you will shine bright...

To be continued...If you wanna know what she has written after that,go to this link :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pytPi9v4JEk

And you will be able to view the full video.I find it inspiring and its such a beautiful piece,definitely worth your view.

Before I ended the post,here are some of my favorite photos taken during the New Year Celebration:

I really had a fun time out with them.

Wishing everyone a Blessed Happy New Year 2013 though its already the 6th day of New Year.

Gotta sign off...

Silent words

It's true when they say you never realize how much a person truly means until they're gone.

Read this from LeLove and it is so so true.

All those nights of tears should come to an end.

I have to learn to stand up from where I fell down.

And I am hoping that one day will come soon whereby my heart no longer cry silently..

I need your prayer on this.

Take Care - To The Loved One

The relationship has came to an end.
No more late night callings for sweet talk nor the fights over the phone.
Even now,I still remember we both laughed at the jokes he told in the phone.
Phone bill wasn't something that we really bother at that time.
Distance is what makes us differently as a couple.

Words can't describe how much we used to have.
Memories kept them all.
When you graduated,I was there feeling so so proud of you.
When I graduated,you were there and you bought me flowers for the first time since we have been together.
We were there for each other during the important moments of our life at least.
We never failed to say I love you to each other.Countless time...

It was our 47th monthsaries.
We had another phone call as a celebration.A different one.
That was the time when we both agreed to let go of each other.
I can't be selfish anymore.
And sorry for all the mistakes that I have made in this relationship.
Thanks for being there for me through the ups and downs for the past 3 years.
Glad that you allowed me to be part of your life.Being once a precious babe of yours.

I am having a heavy heart now.
I am so used to having you.
Merely survived through the first day of adjusting myself.Here I am writing.
And I have to continue the battle tomorrow- to get used to the fact that we are no longer together.
This city is lonely without having you on the other end of the phone.

You could have been having a better life without me.
Perhaps it's really unfair for you to see me grow and take care of me.
The next girl deserves to own your love more rather than me.
I thought one day you could be the one on the other end of the aisle waiting and whom my father will hand me over to you.
Its never going to happen....

We both need time to heal.
And this will be the last time to say this : I love and loved you...

This Blog of Hers

I nearly forgot about this blog.It seems like I always use the same opening each time I started to write.
That day a friend of mine asked me why have I stopped blogging.And guess what is the reason that I gave him?
The blog has become too negative.
I felt sorry because I only spill sad things in here.
I am gonna rectify it then.
In another 29 days to come,I am gonna turn 24.
Getting older means you have to be more mature.
Well,its time for the little flower to bloom....

Nowhere

心情低落到不能再低落。。。
还可以再低吗？
我不知道自己可以负荷多久。
困在里头，好难受。
我钻不出这个无底洞。
已经不知道自己该怎么走前面的路了。
累到一个不行。
我想不到要用什么话来形容此时此刻的心情。
不敢再梦想了。
什么都不敢想。。
只想闭上眼睛，从此不要再想了。
连最亲近的人都无法了解。
这条路似乎无法回头了。
是我自己造成的。
没得怪谁。
谁能帮助我？
好难受！！！

Disciplinism

My life has no discipline at all.
I can't keep a routine life.
At times I will skip applying lotion,toner or even moisturizer.
At times,I will binge on junk food.
Being not disciplined,contribute to major failure in my life.
Even reading God's word is also like this.
tsk tsk.
Time to pray for a more discipline life.
A short and simple,quick post.Am gonna go back to work.
Aftermath of a tired working life.

The Libra

天秤给人的感觉，永远是气质优雅，好像不会生气，总是很温和的态度，对谁都很好的。其实私底下，也只会在很亲近的人面前表现出懒散的、无理取闹的样子。秤子都是比较理性的，很少会感情用事，不太会拒绝人，在衡量中会给人犹豫不定的感觉，如果给她一点时间，那绝对的会很干脆利落。

也许永远没有人能明白，到底天秤有多麼的嘴硬。如果没有人进入天秤的心看一看，那麼天秤便是自私的，不可理喻的。或者只有世界末日那一天，所有爱过秤子的人才会恍然大悟，原来秤子曾给了自己从来不曾有过的爱，不可取代的爱。

天秤座的人喜欢和没有心机的人交朋友，就是那种为朋友两肋插刀的那种，一旦成了朋友，秤子就把你归为自己人，在他的控制范围内了，那样有时候会给那些人带来困饶，因为觉得秤子太粘，感觉不太对味。其实天秤心理明白付出不一定有回报，但是，作为天秤来说，寧愿别人负我，也决不负人。

无论你想做什麼，你的想法如何，都请坦白的告诉她。天秤座能包容你的任何缺点唯独不能忍受被欺骗。你可能觉得无所谓的一次撒谎会让你永远的得不到天秤座的真心，失去这个真诚的朋友。在天秤座的世界裡，非对即错，澄澈分明。

天秤是个具有理想主义和现实主义的星座，他们因为喜欢在一件事情上犹豫很久，给别人的感觉就是性格极其矛盾，复杂到了无法理解。而其实，天秤的内心是很单纯的，他们追求的也是最平凡的快乐，只是太多的是是非非让心迷失了方向，於是出现了迟疑与踌躇不前，只希望最亲密的人能够体谅，如果不但不包涵，反而不停的催促著，丝毫不理会他们的想法，那麼，善良的天秤也只能用沉默来表达不满和鬱闷了。

天秤座容易相信别人、容易被骗，很在乎朋友亲人又常常懒得联繫、很宅懒得走动，要不很沉默内敛、要麼高兴起来让人觉得很傻，喜欢很开心的笑、其实很多时候不知道为了什麼而开心。要嘛很洁癖、要嘛就是环境毁灭者，吃软不吃硬、喜欢装坚强。最嚮往自由、特别情绪化、宽容、怕被欺骗、毒舌。厌恶和别人一样、双重人格、外表给人的感觉很开朗活泼，实际很内向、特别敏感、脆弱。但是真的遇到打击又特别坚强、真的很坚强，就算是装的..。

当天秤为你流泪的时候、天秤深爱著你，如果有一天、天秤不再为你流泪了、那是天秤的心受伤了、也慢慢学会放弃，后来、连心痛也失去知觉。没有放不下东西、伤心了自然会放下，你若不珍惜、天秤亦不爱，等到某月某日、变成陌生人、那就什麼都没了。那时天秤会对你说：祝你幸福！你就带著这句话、离开吧。

天秤座很简单、不喜欢跟别人去争些什麼、吵些什麼、除非真的忍无可忍。看似坚强、其实平静的外表下内心很容易受伤。会偽装、即使遍体鳞伤还是会假装一副无所谓的样子。越长大、会越坚强、也会越脆弱。会在经歷一些很大的事情时时常会很坚强，可却会为了一件小事哭得撕心裂肺。其实并不坚强、是因为试图掩饰自己。也不是脆弱、只是偽装得太久、一旦有一个导火线就会引爆，所以请相信、天秤没有那麼坚强、也没有那麼脆弱。

天秤座对最亲最爱的人容易暴走脾气、特别不好，对外人从来和善、常被人说好。天秤废话很多、在对话过程中不知不觉就会把自己的想法强加在别人身上！

天秤死要睡觉、常常迟到健忘、对大多数人和事不上心，不在意周围、太自我，忽冷忽热会有冷淡期、让朋友受不了。

天秤座是一个充满浪漫、梦想的星座、温柔的星座，坚强且自卑、顽固且软弱、骄傲且自怜。一个一直扮演好孩子的角色、却一直拥有坏孩子心态的星座，有时乖巧、有时疯狂、有时坚强、有时脆弱。

天秤很容易受伤，很容易自卑，很容易满足，很容易爱上一个人，很容易流泪，很容易。但是很难走出悲伤，很难忘记一个人，很难背叛友情和爱情，很难有心机，很难拒绝，很难对得起自己。天秤寧愿牺牲自己的利益都会保全他人的利益，天秤真的值得深交。

会让人觉得有点呆呆笨笨的永远失衡的瓶子。